Friday, February 6, 2015

One Day at a Time

I have no idea what has grabbed ahold of me, but I wish it would let go.

I have been to several doctors from two different hospitals, all agree something is wrong, but no diagnosis.

I think my issues are from the removal of my gallbladder. I've done a lot of research and my symptoms mirror bile reflux. Not much can be done other than more medications which I cannot afford or another surgery.

I'm not having surgery or taking expensive medicines. I'm trying natural cures. I've been doubling my fiber intake, eating apples, and soda crackers everyday. My symptoms are becoming more managable. The soda crackers are not gluten free, but I'll deal with the damage from eating them later.

Getting healthy is my number one priority. I also have to reduce stress. I haven't been commenting on world events because many things going on upset me. Of course I care about others, but right now I have to sort of live in a "bubble". I've been reading books, learning gentle yoga stretches, watching free movies, and keeping to myself. When I am in a better place I'll join the world again.

I'm trying to make my body stronger so I can return to work. This time on medical leave hasn't been a walk in the park. I've always been very frugal and thanks to a subgroup on Reddit sent to me by my daughter, I'm making the small amount of money I have stretch farther. I haven't been eating well. I've lost so much weight and I'm so weak. The food suggestions on Reddit gave me the best days and times to shop. Today I had a full meal. I almost cried while eating.

Not eating makes getting healthy so difficult. You also can't take vitamins or supplements on an empty stomach. Estoy triste. I some how have to keep myself alive until I can return to work in the fall. I'm taking one day at a time though, but it helps to have a goal to work towards.

ComicCon is coming to my area. I'm super excited. I volunteered to work the conference for a couple of days. I think this will be good for me. I wish it was a paid opportunity, but just the chance to continually improve my event planning skills is invaluable.

I hope you are all doing well. I'm trying to post on social media more. If I'm not around, I'm not doing so well.

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