Tuesday, April 24, 2012


Facebook strikes again. My friend D jumps in my mind one evening and I decide to write him a nice little note on his wall:
          "Hello D. I feel like I haven't talked to you in years. I miss you handsome :)."

Please correct me if I'm wrong. I think that was a sweet and innocent message. All I wanted to accomplish was to say hello. If you object to the 'handsome' at the end, know that I call everyone pretty, gorgeous, bella, beautiful or handsome. I always have. This was his girlfriend M's response:
          "Miss having him in class? Cause otherwise that's a little weird" (no period at the end)

Okayyy, what's with the snarky response? She's quite obviously insecure. D and I have a long history. A history M is not a part of at all. He is a former student, but over the years we have become friends. Good friends. I think of him as my little cousin actually. Clearly I'm a threat to her. I'm going to take this as a compliment. I've still got it!!


Saturday, April 7, 2012

French MONTANA!!!

My enchantment with French Montana is still going strong. I've spent a good portion of today watching his videos (including the underground stuff) and I'm a little impressed. I see real improvement with his rap skills. He doesn't sound like a drunk mf anymore. Bueno. That was bad. Don't drink and rap. Ever.

I stumbled upon French Montana's new "Coke Boys Vlog" on World Star Hip Hop a little while ago. Side note: Stay away from WSHH. You are not ready for the things on there. Trust me. Es la verdad. This new vlog featured one of my favorite new rappers, Mac Miller. There is good flow going on despite their, ahem, activities. Check it out for yourself!

Warning, this video contains adult language and content.

So, what did you think? Interesting look at the behind the scenes in the rap game. Now many of you have noticed that French looks like my ex. He does. I think part of the reason I'm so enchanted by him is for this very reason. N and French are a lot alike. I have this addiction to bad boys. I love them.

I know bad boys are not good for me. I've tried to be attracted to good guys. I get bored. I turn around and fall for the tattooed criminal and I get my rush and end up hating him. It's a vicious cycle. I know this.

I actually had a long conversation with my friend S about this topic. We are both in the bad boy rehab process. She broke things down for me. We need the look, the excitement, and the danger. It's addicting. S thinks we should date guys that LOOK like bad boys, but really are not. I have yet to meet one. If you are one or know one please send him my way.


Friday, April 6, 2012


It's sad when a friendship ends. I look at all the sayings about people and relationships and think blah, blah, blah. A cute quote on Pinterest or Twitter doesn't even get close to understanding how much it hurts when your best friend hates you and walks away. I will never know why it happened, what I did to deserve this, or how we got to this point. I do know that this is goodbye forever. Thanks for the memories...

This person who I considered my best friend continued her betrayal in one of the most hurtful ways. When called on it this is the text message I received:
"Listen, I don't know what beef you have with me. I have not done a thing to you. I would really 
appreciated you stop the lies and harassment directed towards me on Facebook. I thought I made it very clear that I no longer want to be friends with you, so please just leave me alone. Thanks."

Dear, you started this. I deleted your number and was finished with you. YOU decided to try and humiliate ME on Facebook. You posted what you did to hurt me. It worked you did hurt me. I even cried. I never did anything to you. Ever. Now you've worked so hard to get my full attention and you can't handle it. Well Lux LaRue keep bothering me and the world will see what you really do and who you really are...


Wednesday, April 4, 2012