Sunday, August 26, 2012


I had an adventure today. ‎While on my way to a baby shower in North Royalton, got stuck in a parade. Police re-routed me to detour and I ended up lost. Very lost. Found myself at the Maple Hills cemetery in Hinkley. Phone stopped working. Cried for an hour and then just started driving. Didn't care where I ended up. Found a biker bar and the awesome people directed me home. Who says guardian angels can't be pierced and tatted?

Missing you Kent,

Sunday, August 12, 2012

I Just Want to Scream!

This past couple of weeks have been a nightmare:
-Mi abuelita passed away.  I was in the room alone with her holding her hands when she took her last breath.
-The next week one of my good friends was killed in a motorcycle accident. He was only 27 years and the father of a one year old baby boy.
-We have a new administrator at work. She was moved to our building because of issues. No bueno. A lot of unhappy people.

Two funerals in two weeks. More crying than I have done in over a year. Everyone tells me that I am so strong. Now that's a perfect lie. I don't feel strong right now. I feel weak. I feel like running far away and never coming back.

The new boss has still not given me my assignment. School begins in a week and I have no clue what or where I'm teaching. It makes me feel unprofessional. Mi madre asked me what I'm doing to cope with all these things. I was dishonest when I replied. I'm not coping.

I've had my phone off for days. I can't communicate with anyone unless it's work related. I feel so stressed. even feel it in my heart. It's a strange feeling. My heart muscle actually hurts.

There is a teeny bit of good news. I have discovered the perfect pair of jeans for my body. Now I just need the money to purchase them :).

Wishing for a vacation,