Heaven is Calling

So very tired,
Monica

Esteem

I have none. I honestly want to disappear. I have no desire to do anything anymore. Nothing gives me joy. I hate myself, my job, and my life.

Being chronically ill is exhausting. I don't have the strength to be happy. To top it all off my ex who just told me a month ago how much he wanted me back and was miserable, now has the perfect girlfriend. She is the exact opposite of me. She's gorgeous, thin, healthy, young, and everything anyone would want in a woman. I think my ex even loves her more than Natalie. All those sweet words about wanting me again were complete bullshit. I should have known, why would anyone want someone as worthless as me?

I'm going away for awhile. I'm turning off my phone and cutting off all social media. I will miss you all.

Take care,
Monica