Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Today...

Friday, June 17, 2011

Bad Boys!

Hello my name is Monica. I cannot stay away from "bad boys". I'm drawn to them like most women are drawn to los zapatos. There is something about a man with a sketchy past, tattoos, and a smirk on his face that turns me on immediately.

I think I put out those vibes as well. It doesn't help that I happened to marry the king of all bad boys. Now that we're divorced, I seem to be fair game for the up and coming ones.

Todas las personas en mi vida have told me I am not allowed to chose my next novio. I get that. I understand why no one around me wants to deal with any more drama. Deep down I don't want any drama either, but why are bad boys so sexy? Especially a certain one with dimples, muscles, and a shy personality. Help?

Sigh,
Monica

Monday, June 13, 2011

Hmm...



Read with caution. Adult language.
*I've been listening to this song today and actually hearing the words. This is totally a punk bitch way to end a relationship. "I love you enough to let you go?" I call bullshit. Some men run when things get too real. Yes, when you fuck sometimes things get REAL. Rant over...maybe. (7-4-11)

Not even a little ;)
Monica

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Stress!

I am under so much stress right now. I don't know how I'm even keeping myself together. Everything than could go wrong has gone wrong. I don't want to answer my phone, open the mail, or leave my room at work.

I'm even hiding from social media. I want nothing to do with Twitter, Facebook, or even Myspace right now. Yes, I'm still holding on to my Myspace for sentimental reasons. #dontjudgeme

In that past when my stress level has gotten out of control my health goes down hill fast. I'm trying to stop that from happening. All I can say is that if you don't see or hear from me for awhile, I'm trying to pull myself together. It's not you, it's me.

Mucho amor,
Monica

Monday, May 30, 2011

Everytime...



Lo siento,
Monica

Sunday, May 22, 2011

My "Freedom Party"...

Surprise, Harold 'False Prophet' Camping was wrong and we're all still here, so my Freedom party went on as planned last night at 11:00 pm. I had an amazing time. Everyone I wanted to show up did. I was surrounded by people who care and have supported me through this rough divorce process.

The party was fabulous. It started out with snacks and Martini's with my girls, pre-gaming we call it. We then moved the party over to my friend's bar where all my other friends were waiting. I couldn't stop smiling. Lots of hugs, kisses, and soooo many adult beverages. I paced myself so I wouldn't be wasted or wake up with a hangover.

I did meet a couple of new prospects for possible fun summer dating. We'll see what happens. I'm just taking one happy day at a time.


Abrazos,
Monica

Monday, May 16, 2011

No More Drama...



This video brought me to tears today during my lunch break. I've experienced every emotion Mary J is singing about. Her lyrics are powerful reminders of my past. "I don't want to cry no more." "I chose to win." "No more waking me up in the morning with your disturbing phone calls." Those lyrics were like little daggers being thrown at me. I have the rest of the year to turn things around. NO MORE DRAMA IN MY LIFE!

Soy una ganadora,
Monica

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Freedom...


Besos,
Monica

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Respect...

Respect, everyone wants it, but how do you earn it and more importantly how do keep it?

As a woman of color I was raised to be nurturing and respectful of others. Kind to my elders and to those in higher positions. I was taught to address adults as Mr. and Mrs. or Señor or Señora . This was my way of life.

My upbringing has been a double-edged sword in the workplace. My kind, nurturing nature has been mistaken for weakness. My respect for my employers has been perceived as 'sucking up' or 'brown-nosing'. Neither perception is true. I simply have class and respect. Respect for myself and for others.

I have respect for the teachers and staff that have gone out of their way to support and help the students in our building. I also have respect for my employers who deal with all the behind the scene details that make our jobs much easier.

How do you get respect and keep it? By giving it to those that have earned it through their words and actions.

Siempre,
Monica

Friday, April 8, 2011

Vee



November 5, 1976 - April 5, 2010

Rest In Peace mi amigo...

Muchos besos y abrazos,
Monica

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Far Away...



If you're in trouble please reach out,
Monica