Faith!

The homily at mass yesterday was about the two widows that gave everything they had to God in faith. One widow only had a few coins to her name, but came to the church and put them in the offering. God said that her offering meant so much more than the offerings the wealthy had given. The rich gave of their abundance, while the poor widow gave her life's savings.

The second widow came across Elijah. He asked her to make him bread. She only had enough for one more meal for her child and her. Despite this, she was obedient to God's word and used the last of her bread and oil for this stranger. She was blessed because of this and never went hungry again.

These stories from the Bible hit home. Lately my medical expenses have been outrageous. I'm living on a few dollars and a little bit of change. I only had six dollars yesterday and gave one to the collection during mass. I had to save the five dollars to go to the grocery store. There was a big sale going on and I had to have a some food in the house to feed my daughter when she comes home from college this weekend. I went to the store and found all sorts of deals. I was able to fill a basket with food for only five dollars. God rewarded me with so much even though I was only able to give Him so little.

Grateful,
Monica

Running Away

I saw the picture you put online today. Your hair is longer and you have a full beard. You look good honey. In my head I know we can't be together again. In my heart I want to try again. We could buy a house out west in the mountains. We could be growers and ride 4-wheelers all day and cook food and watch movies all night.

I know none of this is realistic. I'm so stressed out and dealing with more issues than any one person should have to bare. I guess I just want to run away. I want to be far away from my life right now. I want someone to take care of me for a little while.

Maybe?
Monica

Ohio!

Long lines, confused people, and freezing temperatures ushered in Election Day in Ohio. I arrived at 7:00 am to see a line of people standing outside waiting to vote. None of the poll workers were equipped to handle such large crowds at this new polling location.

After 45 minutes of waiting I finally was given my ballot to vote. While waiting for mine to be scanned, I noticed the scanner in the adjoining district was labeled "broken". Those ballots were to be hand scanned later. Hmm. I suspect many lawsuits will be filed against Ohio and a few will be won.

If you don't vote, you may not complain!
Monica

An Unfaithful Wife

The moment she saw him again after ten years, she knew what was going to happen...

Liz loved Rey from the day she first met him their sophomore year of high school. He was always wearing tight jeans and smelled like soap and cologne. They were just friends. Never anything else. Little did she know they would be so much more.

Working on the reunion committee was a little dull. Liz made several calls and sent emails trying to track down former classmates that didn't live in the area anymore. One day she decided to see if anyone from her high school was on the popular social networking site Myspace.

A familiar name popped up. Reymundo. Her mouth dropped open. Could this actually be him??? Quickly Liz sent him a private message. He replied almost instantly. It was him. Rey. Her high school crush.

They spent hours catching up on old times. Rey joined the Coast Guard immediately after graduation. He also married his senior prom date Jenna. They had two children and were currently living in the same state. Liz was also married and had a little boy.

Liz was ecstatic when Rey wanted to speak on the phone. His voice was so sexy! The first time they talked neither one of them wanted to get off the phone with each other. Both were in unhappy marriages and needed attention. Rey was more than willing to give Liz the attention she craved.

Rey's wife's family still lived in their old hometown, not too far from where Liz lived with her husband Santiago. Rey was bringing his family to the area and suggested they meet for coffee while he was in town.

She was more excited and nervous than she had ever been. Their talks on the phone were so perfect. How would things be in person? Would they have the same chemistry? Liz changed her outfit about fifty times before she left to meet Rey.

Liz remembers sitting at the table by the window waiting for Rey to arrive. She almost got up and went home. After a few minutes he pulled up in his Jeep. He looked amazing. So handsome and sexy. The way he undressed her with his eyes made her squirm in her seat.

When Liz stood up to greet him, Rey pulled her into a hug. He pressed his body into hers. She didn't want to let go. After about five minutes of chatting Rey asked if she wanted to go for a ride through the park. Liz smiled and agreed.

The day at the park marked the beginning of their three year affair. Three years of hugging, kissing, touching, and making love. They met at hotels, parks, coffee houses, and sometimes never even left her car. It was a wild and exciting time in both of their lives.

Looking back Liz regrets letting Rey into her life again. She felt guilty about sleeping with another man while she was married. Why did she do it? Loneliness. She didn't feel wanted or needed by her husband. Being with Rey made her feel like a teenager again.

I asked Liz if she had it to do all over again would she? No. Never, she replied. a few moments of bliss cost her a lifetime of regret.

The unthinkable,
Monica

One of My Guilty Pleasures...

Natesvlogs.

I discovered Nathan Fisher and his hilarious vlogs about a year ago. He's best known for his 'Employee Evaluations' videos. The one below is one of my favorites. *Due to a series of awful events, Nathan Fisher (Natesvlogs/NatesFlicks) has moved to dailymotion


Nate's dry sense of humor, creative use of the English language, and occasionally unzipping his blackness make me laugh until I cry.  If you take the time to watch Nate's other videos you'll learn about, in great detail, his experiences growing up, dating women from party chat lines, and losing his virginity in a bathroom stall.

All the Cool Kids are Watching

Giggling,
Monica

Confessions

1.  I don't like sneaky people. I will respect you much more if you just tell me the truth.

2.  Karma is a bitch. I can't wait until she stops by the staff in the 8th grade hallway.

3.  If I could run away for a month with no consequences I would leave within the hour.

4.  I love cheese.

5.  There are four people I would punch in the face right now.

6.  Facebook is one of the most depressing places online. I wish I had the strength to delete my account.

7.  I have a HUGE crush on someone. I feel like a middle school girl when I'm around him.

8.  My ex's best friend sends me inappropriate texts at least once a month.

9.  'Hello Kitty' stuff always makes me smile.

10.  I wish I had naturally wavy hair.

11.  I feel guilty when I miss Sunday Mass.

12.  There are people I've met online that I consider my true friends even though I have never met them.

13.  The day everyone was going insane over the iPhone 5, I bought a new Blackberry Bold.

14.  I've read the "Fifty Shades of Grey" trilogy more than three times.

Besos,
Monica

Reflections

-If you live in the USA please vote. Su vota es su voz.

-My new boss is making me miserable.

-I finally stopped talking to my ex.

-My lawn looks fabulous. I've learned how to mow in straight lines.

-If you are fortunate enough to have a good doctor, you are blessed.

-There are people who wake up with the goal to make others sad. I work with many of these people.

-No matter what I do, I cannot seem to lose any more weight.

-My dog makes me laugh every day.

-Mi madre puede ser cruel. 

-You cannot change what you don't acknowledge. 

Abrazos,
Monica

Growing Up

I've finally come to the decision that I'm important. I no longer have to be overly sweet to people who mistreat me. It has taken me over 30 years to realize this fact.

Work has been stressful this year. We have yet another new administrator. Every new boss  who walks through the door feels the need to re-invent the wheel. This is not okay. I now just shut my door and continue to do what is best for my students and me.

I've also eliminated so called friends from my life. People who drain me are not welcome in my life anymore. I refuse to be taken advantage of anymore. If you don't care about me, why should I let you continue to be in my life?

I guess I have grown up. I'm taking responsibility for my own happiness and well being. You're either with me or against me.

Fuerte,
Monica

Lost!

I had an adventure today. ‎While on my way to a baby shower in North Royalton, got stuck in a parade. Police re-routed me to detour and I ended up lost. Very lost. Found myself at the Maple Hills cemetery in Hinkley. Phone stopped working. Cried for an hour and then just started driving. Didn't care where I ended up. Found a biker bar and the awesome people directed me home. Who says guardian angels can't be pierced and tatted?

Missing you Kent,

Monica

I Just Want to Scream!

This past couple of weeks have been a nightmare:
-Mi abuelita passed away.  I was in the room alone with her holding her hands when she took her last breath.
-The next week one of my good friends was killed in a motorcycle accident. He was only 27 years and the father of a one year old baby boy.
-We have a new administrator at work. She was moved to our building because of issues. No bueno. A lot of unhappy people.

Two funerals in two weeks. More crying than I have done in over a year. Everyone tells me that I am so strong. Now that's a perfect lie. I don't feel strong right now. I feel weak. I feel like running far away and never coming back.

The new boss has still not given me my assignment. School begins in a week and I have no clue what or where I'm teaching. It makes me feel unprofessional. Mi madre asked me what I'm doing to cope with all these things. I was dishonest when I replied. I'm not coping.

I've had my phone off for days. I can't communicate with anyone unless it's work related. I feel so stressed. even feel it in my heart. It's a strange feeling. My heart muscle actually hurts.

There is a teeny bit of good news. I have discovered the perfect pair of jeans for my body. Now I just need the money to purchase them :).

Wishing for a vacation,
Monica

Go...

I'll be fine on my own,
Monica